Worthy To Live

     “I woke up one day realizing that years have gone by and yet still my life hasn't really changed.  So, year after year, I always ended up dreaming for a change. I supposed this will be the same thing for the next few years to come. I am the same person.”  This thought has almost conquered me in the battle I am fighting for. Yes, I am at war to the world and to myself. This world we live in is raging a battle not only to the physical bodies of each of us but more so the very  heart and soul of the humanity.  Every tomb in the cemetery has left unforgettable memories. Worst or best doesn't really matter. After all, every person is worth of high value that can never be condemned. I am still lucky enough for staying awake to choose the path I need to live. Life remains mysterious as it is.  No one can ever fathom the secret that lies in it. There will only be lessons to give us a gist of what life is all about.

     Sometimes, to fulfill one’s ultimate dream is when one starts to fail and become the person he doesn't dream to be. I remembered myself dreaming for almost all of my life. I was taught to do the best in everything and to be the greatest of them all. It was a great feeling having been successful.  Temporarily, it boosted my confidence to do something unusual in life, some stupid adventures that led me to nowhere. I took the risks with passion and willingly fooled myself. I was deceived with the comforts and self-gratification it provides. I have thought that I have done tremendous achievements in my very own selfish desires. Even every after consequence I suffer, it remains a hard lesson to learn. And to perfectly master it, one has to fail many times until lessons are learned on its way over and over again.

     Life is always a big question mark!  A lot of us have been wandering around to probably find the answers to some questions or to create a different identity after having achieved something satisfying. We have not yet truly seen the essence of life. I may not exactly know what each of us really want or need, but it is worth to just close the door of our own world. There is a whole world outside us that struggles a lot and needs our simple gesture of goodness.  The purpose of our existence isn't found in our own world where discontentment and hunger for earthly pleasures continue to swallow us.  This is the reality of the world inside us that we ignore.  We are not only blind of this sad truth but also coward to let go of our foolishness. The story of the person beside you now might change your world.  Open yourself even to a stranger.  You might not be able to give the best shot at the moment. What is important is the giving up of your own world to embrace other’s lives.  

     Every second is precious to every person in this passing world. Before this day ends, I decide to do something that is really of necessity for change, not for my own sake, but for others who are in need of me.  I chose to lose my own “selfish” world to live a meaningful life that is worth fighting for.